Kaban ni Mysticalistic: ALANG SA MGA SAMARAN UG KASINGKASING

A NOTE FOR THE BROKEN-HEARTED

This is for the broken-hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. 

That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. 

You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. 

They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. 

And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. 

So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this…

(Bug-os ang pasalamat sa KAHAYAG ngadto sa magtatampo nga si JOANNE FALLARIA LOBEDICA. Nagtakuban siya sa pangalan, “MYSTICALISTIC”.  Tubo siyang taga Sugbo apan nanimuyo na karon sa Illinois sa tinipong nasod sa Amerika. Sa pangedaron nga 24 anyos, nagpabilin siyang dalaga ug kasamtangang nanimpalad isip Private Healthcare Provider. Gradwado siya sa kurso isip usa ka  Nurse sa University of Cebu, Banilad Branch, sa dakbayan sa Sugbo ug usa na usab siya ka Registered Nurse dinhi sa Pilipinas.  Dala sa dakong pangandoy aron  makab-otan ang kalamposan, iyang giatubang  karon ang  dakong bugno sa binairay sa kahibalo, ang paglampos sa umaabot  pasulit  sa NCLEX  nga muhatod kaniya sa pagkahingpit na nga Nurse aron  makaserbisyo sa nasod sa Amerika,  yuta sa  gatas ug dugos. Mahiligon siyang mosulat ug mga garay, mga buhing paghulagway sa mga pulong nga gilitok sa kasingkasing sa mga managhigugmaay.)